To the person, who has not found love, yet…

I’m not really sure how to begin this post apart from, I have a lot of things on my mind lately and figured writing about them in a blogpost will be a great way to get it out. I thought I would write this post in an anonymous letter, to whomever may need it, including perhaps myself. I’m not entirely sure if this will flow well, at all.

“Dear whomever is reading this,

I’m not sure how I’m gonna get into this letter. I guess the only way I can do is state what I want to say without ‘beating round the bush’ – whatever that means. I’m 23 years old. I’m a female and I’ve never ever been in a serious relationship. I say serious, in actual fact I mean… any love-type relationship, at all. 

I often see posts on social media, of people my age and even younger with their loved one. Going away on holidays together, romantic dates or even days where you sit in bed, eat pizza and binge watch TV shows. I know that what is posted on social media is what people want you to see of their lives, or has been said before… a show’s highlight reel. I know, it isn’t always what it’s really like. There could be other problems and issues people are going through that they don’t want you to see. I get that. But the posts I do see, I can’t help but feel, when will it be my turn? 

The ‘attention’ I ever seem to get is from men, which I wish would leave me alone. For example, not too long ago, I got off the train from London after a job interview and couldn’t afford a taxi home so had to get the bus. Whilst walking to the bus stop the bus passed me and I missed it. I still headed there, waiting for the next bus as the walk from the station home isn’t long, but long enough. Especially after a day in London. The bus stop isn’t in a location where there’s no one around. In fact, it’s in a place where many, many people are around. Walking, driving, whatever it may be. However, there was this one man… quite tall and weirdly carrying a balloon. Must have got it from McDonalds near by, who was following me. Every time I stopped and turned round, he stopped. Not that this should be an issue at all, but I was wearing quite a short leather skirt and a longer blazer. I mean… I had to dress up smartly because I had an interview. I started to get concerned because I was alone and this guy was literally following me. It wasn’t until he started shouting stuff I really got nervous. I ended up having to run… literally run, two bus stops away to get away from him. WHY is it always, these types of people I attract?

I would say that I’m an outgoing person. I would like to think I am fun to be around. Of course not all the time, we alllllll have those days. Whether we admit it or not. You know, them types of days where you just want to hide from the world, snuggled in bed, watching your fave TV show and drinking hot chocolate or cups of tea on tap. (If you’re interested, my show is Greys Anatomy… I’ve watched 11 out of 13 seasons and it’s the ONLY show I can watch, without getting bored… unless you’re talking about Friends, but that’s a different story – that Now TV I bought at Christmas time, my fave for all Grey’s binge sessions) With that being said about myself, why haven’t I found someone yet? Why does no one pay any sort of attention to me?

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I feel a little left out. I feel like maybe I’m not good enough for a partner. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m a bit terrified of love, because I’ve never had it before. I wouldn’t know the first thing to do. Maybe it’s just the attention I want and the love and not everything else that comes with it? Maybe… I just don’t know what or who I want after all?

I hate putting labels on things, especially things such as love. Love should just be love, right? Whether you’re a boy/man who has fallen in love with a boy/man/girl/woman or if you’re a girl/woman who’s fallen in love with a girl/woman/boy/man. Surely love, is love. 

I don’t know if what I’ve said has made sense. If you have read this and has also never had a boyfriend/girlfriend, who is also the only one out of your friend’s who hasn’t got/had a partner, Just know you’re not alone. I know the feeling is crappy and I too, am fed up of that saying… there is someone for everyone. I will believe it when I see it. I do, however.. believe everyone is worthy of love. Whoever and whenever it will be.

Until then, I guess you and I will be holding out for a hero… whoever they may be x x x”

 

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Favourite lipstick collection

I am a sucker for lipsticks. I cannot help but buy one every single time I go into a drugstore to buy make up. There is just SOMETHING about opening a fresh clean new lipstick. I have quite a collection now I can’t help but buy one and thought I’d share my favourite four lipsticks. The photos are not exactly great because I love and adore these lipsticks and they are religiously worn.

  1. KIKO PARIS – 01 NUDE. Although this is a new lipstick it is my now become my go to every single day since I bought it. It is a gorgeous shade and you can just see the colour. It makes it more of a daily lipstick this way. At the moment it is on offer, not sure how long it will last so I’d defo snap it up ASAP here.

     

  2. CLINQUE – NUDE POP. This one I got free with Glamour magazine sometime last year and really adore it. I feel like it is moisturising to the lips which, for me has to be a must. The colour is really on trend and very neutral. I love it. You can buy it here.

     

  3. LOREAL – 1o3 PROTEST QUEEN. I have just done a post recently on this lipstick when I bought some of the new collection. I really love this lipstick for a glossy look, just for a change from the normal matte looking lipsticks I usually where. My personal experience this lipstick has stayed on. You can purchase it here.

     

  4. MAC – STONE. This colour is different to the others above. I’ve never been brave enough to buy a darker lipstick but this one is just gorgeous. It’s a deep browny/purple matte shade and I adore it. I’m so pleased to have bought it. I only wear it occasionally but when I do I get good comments about it. You can purchase it here.

     

There you have it. There’s a mix of high price and low price lipsticks here but all are very much treasured by me. What are your favourite drug store or high end lipsticks? I’m always on a hunt for new ones.

Speak soon

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Beautycon 23rd May

On Saturday (23rd May) I was lucky enough to attend London’s first Beautycon event, thanks to the lovely people at Liz Earle.

Beautycon is a convention where you can meet Youtubers, bloggers and have stands which sell beauty products for discounted prices (or if you’re lucky free!!)

It was a fabulous day as I was able to meet Youtubers that I have watched previously and bloggers. All bloggers/bloggers I met were lovely and were all up for a chat.

I was lucky enough to pick up some freebies as well. From Liz Earle I got their set of limited edition Cleanse and Polish set, a sample bottle of another Cleanse and Polish. From NYX I got an eyeliner which I’m so pleased about as I had just run out that morning. From Crown Brushes I picked up two brushes that I was desperate to buy at a cheaper discounted price. I also bought a nail varnish from Red Carpet Manicure which was super super cheap! Expect soon reviews of all the products I picked up.

Heres some photos from the day with fabulous vloggers/bloggers and my goodies:

Shannon and I pre selfie at the station!
Shannon and I pre selfie at the station!
Beautycon!!! We arrived!
Beautycon!!! We arrived!
Going up to meet the very very gorgeous Carli!
Going up to meet the very very gorgeous Carli!
AAH lets hug!
AAH lets hug!
Hugs!!!!
Hugs!!!!
Time for a piccccy!
Time for a piccccy!
And why not a selfie?
And why not a selfie?
The gorgeous Leanne Lim-Walker who I've previously illustrated!
The gorgeous Leanne Lim-Walker who I’ve previously illustrated!
The gorgeous and funny Claire and Amelia!
The gorgeous and funny Claire and Amelia!
NYX make up studio
NYX make up studio
Hey Samantha from PixieWoos
Hey Samantha from PixieWoos
The gorgeous and fun Rosie, Anchall and Prince of Vanity!
The gorgeous and fun Rosie, Anchall and Prince of Vanity!
Leanne Lim-Walker, Pretty Sickly and Tasha!
Leanne Lim-Walker, Pretty Sickly and Tasha!
The very very gorgeous Niomi Smart
The very very gorgeous Niomi Smart

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I’ll be back soon for a post with reviews. Thank you again Liz Earle for the tickets, I am so grateful and had an amazing day!

Speak soon x